Emily makes out with her dog.
Today my sister broke my fingers. Nbd.
February 4th, 2014
Today I woke up sick
not upset stomach sick
but upset mind sick
I went to school anyway
And then I thought
why should I be at the place that makes me sick
why shouldn’t I be with the one who makes me healthy
And then I wondered
if the one who makes me healthy
is at the place that makes me sick
not upset stomach sick but upset mind sick
how sick would the place really be?
Also, tonight is Tuesday and I’m so excited because my best friend from camp and I haven’t really been connecting, but we started bonding over teen mom and making fun of the crap they go through, which isn’t really nice, but hey, it’s entertainment. Anyway, we always live text the shows to each other and ahh, so excited. It’s so fucking hilarious.
I fly to Arkansas Thursday to visit my future college. I’ll be moving into said college on August 14th and Thursday will be my first time seeing it. After Thursday, I’ll have 7 months and 8 days until I see it for the first time as a student and not a potential student. I’m scared and excited all at once.
Anonymous asked: what's an eno?
It’s like a hammock, but made of nylon and totally portable! It’s also my first impulse buy, costing $100, and my most favorite possession.
Anonymous asked: how did coffee go today?
Omg anon. SO lovely. We didn’t even get coffee.
We went downtown and went to Chamblin’s and then went to the MOCA, which is the Museum of Contemporary Art, and then we went to the park in Riverside and since I had my eno with me, we hung it up. So we then spent like, two and a half hours just talking and sitting close because it’s impossible not to in an eno. Then when it starting getting dark, we went to San Jose for donuts, but I only eat donuts if they’re glazed and just came out of the glaze, but they didn’t have any just made so we went to Panera and then it kind of got bad because for some reason or another, I got really sick. So he took my keys and took me back to his house and made me sip on gingerale until I felt up to driving.
It was just really great and I wish I could relive our two hours in the eno over and over again.
You told me that you broke up with your girlfriend, but I had no idea you were dating. So I asked you if you kissed her and when you said yes I felt my heart break again because I couldn’t imagine your lips on anyone else’s but my own. And when you told me you didn’t love her, I felt a tingle of hope. I know I shouldn’t let that hope fester until I see you Saturday because I know your lips will only be tasting the coffee we stop to get and not my lips as we stop to get coffee.
I really don’t like you at all.
I got a dick pic last night from this guy who graduated the year before me and Destiny sends me this tonight. I can’t. She’s perff. I knew I told her about it for a reason.
2013 in a nutshell
- circus with my best friends for my 17th birthday in January
- brother got to visit after airforce junk in February
- found my confidence again thanks to a pageant in March
- brand spankin’ new car in April
- heartbreak in May
- DREAM JOB AT CAMP IN JUNE AND JULY
- senior year started in August
- accepted to Harding in September
- City and Colour, NeedtoBreathe, Passion Pit, The Joy Formidable, St. Lucia, and Two Door Cinema Club all packed into October
- surprise weeks of having dad home from Afghanistan in November
- finally feeling at peace with who I am as a person in December.
This past year was the best one yet. I learned about who I am and I am so in love with myself. I am content with my body and happy with the way I look. I’m okay with my messy hair and somewhat petite/curvy body shape. I adore my personality and the way I’m able to be open again. 2013, you were good to me and I can only hope 2014 will be the same.
Anonymous asked: what are your new years resolutions?
You know, anon, I didn’t make any this year. I’m pretty content with who I am as a person and if, sometime within this next year, I find a part of myself I don’t like, I’m going to change it. Until then, I’m just going to continue to be confident in who I am and have a good time.
Ask me how much I hate my gramma. Because it’s a lot.